changing the pain
a new kind
never just illusion
I made it real
it starts now
in a new dimension

writing a list of all the souls I eat
I don’t care if they are bad or good this I must mention
I’m so amused by all the minds I read
I’ve been here for so long without your attention

this is over now
because the third war has come

and I’m following the missile down
down to the ground

enjoying the pain
a new kind
never just illusion
I made it real
and you bow
to this great deception

writing a list of all the lives I take
I love the smell of burned flesh, wood and stone
infected with rage you all followed my mislead
I’m sure forever you will remind my vast sanction

feel free to bow
because the third war has come

and I’m following the missile down
down to the ground
and I’m following the missile down
I’m following the missile down
burning the ground

may there be light at the porches of heaven
one day, one year, one life
a disease that kills you sleeping
and with it hate is sprawling

these stories somewhat irritating
and came to be the only hope
what makes us think that we’ll be forgiven
as long our lies keep sprawling
say

I feel the hollow
my mind is breaking down
let my hope be real
let it be shallow
these lies they make me drown
will I be forsaken

may there be light at the porches of heaven
one fist, one fight, one fate
this disease that kills us sleeping
and with it hate is sprawling
stay

I feel the hollow
my mind is breaking down
let my hope be real
let it be shallow
these lies they make me drown
will I be forsaken

will I be forgiven
will I be forgiven
I will be forgiven
will I be forsaken

I feel the hollow
my mind is breaking down
let my hope be real
let it be shallow
these lies they make me drown
will I be forgiven

this force of hollow
which time is breaking down
let my hope be real
let it be shallow
so I won’t drown
I know I am forsaken

just to fit in I adapted
it made me a silouette of what I see
I hoped to be more like everyone else
but now I understand
I lied to myself

the faces I wore did never peel off
and sometimes I feel like
I’ve never been real

and I fear that I’ll never find me
because I always tried to be you
abandoned myself to despair
so long

I tried to dig through the walls I built up
but the further I reach
the more it drives me to stop

what slave have I become unable to see
that I will never live
until I break free

and I fear that I’ll never find me
because I always tried to be you
I won’t draw the curtain aside
afraid am I to look behind
afraid by what there I may find
still I’m prefering to hide
I abandoned myself to despair
so long

the word endures the truth
it breaks stone and it dries oceans
and the truth dies lonely in the shades
that the words of many cast
I soak them up and write them down
so they may forever last

step by step have I gathered everything
I soaked up your truth and I made it mine
I hear your gentle voice stroking my mind
here I sit and write with the illusion of a choice

I watch the words flow
through my fingers
It’s not me
It’s not me

I’ve been kissed by the muse
and I know that I would never have come close
to the words that you implanted deep in me
constantly I feel my hunger grows
will I ever saturate

verse by verse have I gathered everything
I soaked up your truth and I made it mine
I envy you for these
emotions that I could not
lead into directions
lead into a sense

I know I should thank you
you gave me a voice but
it’s not mine
it’s not mine

I’ve been kissed by the muse
and I know that I would never have come close
to the words that you implanted deep in me
constantly I feel my hunger grows
will I ever saturate

to know that I would never have come close
is the burden that I carry deep in me
constantly I feel my hunger grows
I will never saturate

I did not sleep well
I kept the burden of the last and bygone day
tried to shake it off
but it did not fall down

creating something new
the seed of my oppressed and tortured mind
before it even grew they stamp it down
all is wrong

if I only know what the next day likes to bring
I would not despair and hold fear down
I would live today
and tomorrow I could have my martyr death
without the desire to survive
I will not stop feeling

come back my lost and childish innocence
come back my best and foolish ignorance

keep my mind my body and my fingers closed
now they’re here for me and knock me down
they take me away
after all I know that I don’t want to die
as they step to me I know
all is wrong

come back my lost and childish innocence
come back my best and foolish ignorance

I will concede
everything that I preached
is wrong

violence goes ‘round the circle
makes my head and fingers numb
visionary speeches shouted
we will not allow

leaders of the latest movements
mothers, fathers, sons and daughters
never thought that they would be there
never thought that they’d been shot

bravery the long lost brother
hope will wave the tears away
since there follows just another
we will not allow

have we made the right decision
does he lead, does he lead well
if he loses our acceptance
he can easily be shot

we solve our problems and we solve them right
we tolerate you till you want to change us
to change things is not your and our fight
step away, leave it be or you get shot

violence goes ‘round the circle
makes my head then fingers numb
visionary speeches shouted
we will not allow

leaders of the latest movements
do they lead, do they lead well
never thought that they would be there
never thought that they’d been shot

we solve our problems and we solve them right
we tolerate you till you want to change us
to change things is not your and our fight
step away, leave it be or you get shot